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Sorry For My Absence

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 25, 2015, 9:18 PM
Hello All
I'm Sorry For My Absence As Of Late.
A Few Weeks Ago I Had Another Tooth Operation
And I Developed A Nasty Infection Which Left Me
In So Much Pain It Made Me Very Distant And Suicidal
I'm Much Better Now I Have Had A Course Of
Anti-Biotics And Pain Killers.
I Am Still Tender and Sore But
Im Able To Function Better!
Hope You Are All Well My Loves.


  • Mood: Daily Needs
  • Listening to: Piano Classics
  • Reading: Bumble The Brave Kitten
  • Watching: No Tell Motel
  • Playing: N/A
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea

Lots Of New Stock For You All!

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 18, 2015, 2:33 PM
Hey All
So the past few days
I have been struggling to get any sleep
so I decided to create more stock
for you to all use in your wonderful creations.
A lot of it is Precut/Png so very easy for you to use.
All Free of course. I Never charge for my stock or art.
Thankyou to my lovely friends-
Gemma Jade
Charlotte Lota
and others whom let me use there photos in my creations.


I Look forward to seeing your creations peeps.


  • Mood: Happy
  • Listening to: Harden My Heart-Rock Of Ages
  • Reading: Bumble The Brave Kitten
  • Watching: Pretty Little Liars
  • Playing: Spooky Bonus
  • Eating: Cakes
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Had Tooth Taken Out Today

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 21, 2015, 8:31 AM
So For Many Years I Have Had An Vampire Baby Tooth
at the front of My Mouth and the past few months it has felt
loose and painful so today I went to the Dentist and had it taken out. It feels weird and sore stinging a lot so I Got to take it easy for about a week and stay off certain foods so it can heal.
Thank God for pain killers. Sorry I have not updated my journal in sometime Not really had much to write about lol.
So Im on rest all week now until its healed.

  • Mood: Happy
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Bumble The Brave Kitten
  • Watching: House Of Wax
  • Playing: Logo Quiz
  • Eating: Icecream
  • Drinking: Lemonade

2 Sleeps Till Santa

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 22, 2014, 7:08 PM
Yes You Read That Right 2 Sleeps Till Santa LOL
Im Such A Big Kid At Christmas Time I Adore It.
I Love The Music,The Food,The Gift Giving,The Celebrations And Most Of All Remembering Jesus And His Birthday.
I Just wanted to Wish All Of My Beautiful Friends,Fans Ans Watchers A Very Merry Christmas And All The Best In 2015 :)

Love You All


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  • Mood: Happy
  • Listening to: Relaxation
  • Reading: Bumble The Brave Kitten
  • Watching: Eastenders
  • Playing: Spooky Bonus
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

My Baby Cousins Funeral Is Tomorrow

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 3, 2014, 7:11 AM

I Feel So Awful Right Now...
Its My Baby Cousins Funeral On
4th December And Im Unable To Go Due
To Health Reasons...My Health Gets In The Way Of Everything I Could Not Go To A Friends Wedding Because Of It I Am Confined To My Laptop Because Of It I Know Over The Years I Have Developed Agrophobia And I Have Become Scared To Go Out....I Am An Horrible Person Because I Can't Imagine What My Cousin Jocelyn Is Going Through Right Now I Have No Words And Even Though They Are Not My Own Children I Am Still Struggling To Deal With How Messed Up This World Is. Somedays I Am Ok And Somedays I Am Out Of My Mind,Crying And Screaming Inside.I Love My Cousin So Much And My Family I Pray They Won't Hate Me For Not Turning Up And Hope They Understand I Am More Poorly Than I Let On I Hide The Darkness Of It All Because I Do Not Want Anyone To Worry Or See How Much My Illnesses Affect Me I Show Some Sides Of It And Often Post About How Sick I Am Its Not To Get Attention But Because I Am In A Lot Of Physical Pain I Have To Take Medication Everyday Especially Pain Killers....I Am Not As Strong As People Think I Am...But Even In This Status Its NOT About Me I Want Jocelyn To Know That I Love Her And Even Though Im Not At The Funeral I Am Always Thinking Of Her.I Even Made Some Videos Of Me Singing And One Of Me Dancing To Just Get Out Of The Black Mood I Feel...Im Not In Control Of My Bowel Movements And Have Terrible Accidents All The Time And I Would Not Like To Burden Family With That If It Happened While I Was With Them :(

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Ghosthouse
  • Playing: Spooky Bonus
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Tea

A Long Awaited Journal

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 13, 2014, 5:37 PM
Dear Friends/Followers/Watchers And Fan

I am sorry for not keeping my Journal up to date.
My health has been so bad lately I have struggled to want to
get up out of bed and have motivation to much a touch of
Depression as well as other sickness.
Anyway just a short journal to say I am still around.

Much Love


  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Heather Feather-ASMR
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Supernatural 200th Episode
  • Playing: Bowling
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Back From My Holidays

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 2, 2014, 11:46 AM
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Hello All
Sorry I Have Been In-active/Away I have been In Wales
For the Past week staying with my Parents :)
I Had a lovely time I got back last night and rather tired
from the Train Journey plus my Heart Murmur is not so good
at the moment anyway Just checking in :)
Hope you are all good xxx

Skin by SpookyLoop
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Acromegaly
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: 24 Hours In A And E
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coke

Very Sick Right Now :(

Journal Entry: Fri May 30, 2014, 5:33 AM

On Friday Of last week I decided to go out early
go shopping maybe catch a Mcdonalds breakfast anyway
while I was at Mcdonalds I Met a little old lady
whom was obviously Homeless and not well being the kind person I am
I gave her the rest of my breakfast as I was full and I hate waste.
She later found me to say thankyou and gave me a token to get a free cup of tea
which I thought was very sweet of her and thought nothing more of it.
I then went shops brought some toiletries toys etc and came home feeling good.
The next day I can't breath, my throats killing me, my nose and ears are blocked and I have the
mother of all headaches And All I Want to do is curl up in bed turns out that I Had caught a Virus
from this little old lady which has developed into a chest infection I Had to go to my Doctors and
Am now On strong Anti-Biotics needless to say Im coughing my guts up here and feel so rough.
So That Is Why I Have Been Unactive On Deviant Art For Over A Week
t the Weekend I Contracted A Nasty Virus And Now
Im Nursing A Rather Nasty Chest Infection So I am not feeling
So Hot right now...Will Be Back Soon!!!!



  • Mood: Irritated
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Death Becomes Her
  • Playing: Charm Tales
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

My Internet Search Favorite Websites

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 17, 2014, 1:16 PM

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I find all of these sites very useful so feel free to check any of them out :)

  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Eastenders
  • Playing: Woobies
  • Eating: Chicken Nuggets And Chips
  • Drinking: Coke

Menorrhagia And Chronic Migraines

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 31, 2014, 8:18 AM
Hello Friends
Sorry I have not updated my Journal for a little while 
My health has taken a turn for the worse and the past 2 weeks
I have been knocked for six.
Due To Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
I Do Not Get Regular Periods I Get Them once Maybe Twice a Year
If Im Lucky this is what is known as "Menorrhagia"
Heavy Bleeding,Blood Clots,Fainting Spells,Nausea,Back Pain
Its ten times worse than an Ordinary Period.
Anyway I also had like 4 Migraines in the space of a few days So
I have been in bed I could not even play games on My Laptop
Because that would just bring on another migraine....
I lost a lot of blood and so now having to eat extra to rebuild the salts,sugars And Proteins
back in my body because Im also Diabetic Type 2 I wanted to do a new big piece of Art for you all but I am lacking so much energy and Im constantly on pain killers that I just can only seem to manage stamps etc right now anyway I wanted you to all know Im still around :)

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Most Haunted
  • Playing: Bookworm Adventures
  • Eating: Ham And Lettuce Sandwich
  • Drinking: Tea

I Say What I Feel When Im Feeling It.....

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 26, 2014, 2:28 AM
I am a person who Believes that if its my Facebook page then I should be able to post/say what I want 
Well so life has been a struggle for me and im not the only one.
Right now im waiting for forms to complete to 
make sure Im still entitled to my sick money and the stress
has made me sick even more needless to say I understand expressing
my feelings on facebook is risky and everyones always going to have there own opinions
which they are also entitled too but I am someone who always says what they feel when im feeling it
I mean everyone who knows me closely knows I have struggled with Mental Illness
and Self Harm for many years since I was 9 years old infact.
So I see Facebook as an outlet sometimes to air my feelings and frustrations
I don't go out much due to my health.
I can't help that some people may not like what I have to express
or say that's just me Im an open book and Im honest
I mean You would think people would rather I spoke 
about my bad thoughts and feelings 
than actually cutting myself or thinking about it....
I can't please everyone........................

  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Dance Moms
  • Playing: Spooky Bonus
  • Eating: Lollypop
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Happy New Year (2014)

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 30, 2013, 10:53 AM
Hello All 
We had a wonderful Christmas and im sad that its nearly over 
as its my favorite time of year I had some brilliant presents
Glee Season 4 Boxset
Betty Boop Pyjamas
Tatty Teddy Earrings
Amazing Girlfriend Tatty Teddy
Pat Benatar Album
We Are The Fallen Album
Glee Showstoppers Album
Alice Cooper Album
No 7 Cosmetic Kit
Lady Gaga Perfume/Body Lotion/Shower Gel
Glee Bag
Katy Perry Perfume
The Body Shop Kit
Cat Books
Grumpy Cat Calendar
Grumpy Cat Book
Lil Bub Book
And Loads More
And Christmas dinner was lush 
we still have lots of the food we brought 
so will eat it in the new year.
New Years Eve we will be having a quiet drink in 
all thats left to say is Happy New Year all the best in 2014 :)

Much Love


  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Lil Bub
  • Watching: Teen Witch (Movie)
  • Playing: N/A
  • Eating: Danish Butter Cookies
  • Drinking: Tea

Offline Till After Christmas

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 23, 2013, 12:13 PM
I Go Offline At 9pm And Im Offline Till After Christmas
So Just Want To Wish Everyone An Awesome Christmas I Hope You All
Have Lots Of Wonderful Presents Love You All Merry Christmas xxxx

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  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Christmas Songs
  • Reading: The History Of Colwyn Bay
  • Watching: Coronation Street
  • Playing: Chuzzles
  • Eating: Ferrero Rocher
  • Drinking: Coca Cola

All Geared Up For Christmas :)

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 11, 2013, 4:42 AM

Ho Ho Ho Friends :)
The Decorations are up,the tree is up,I have been opening my chocolate advent calendar everyday which I might add is a Hello Kitty One Lol...All the presents are wrapped looks like a little santas grotto hee
Yesterday we spent £260 on christmas food shopping im excited this year :)
You see we did not have a christmas me and my little family last year we swapped a few presents but it was not like our usual big christmases were you this year we are making up for it :)
Even our kitty has treats coming he has 2 new collars,tins of tuna,cat milk,cat nip and on Christmas day he shall be sharing
some of the lovely big turkey (MEOWWWWWWWWW) YES He will definetly be meowing for that hee hee!
Now I know some of you are sad right now as I had 11 people on my recent poll say they were not looking forward to crimbo
this year whatever troubles you have I hope and pray the new year will bring you all Brighter and happy situations and circumstances.
Hope your enjoying all the newly precut stock I have been uploading I have been going around the house looking for items that I own
and photographing them and making stock with them hopefully some of you will find them useful anyway.

Happy Christmas All
May Your wishes all come true in 2014 :heart:

  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Heather Feather Asmr
  • Reading: The History Of Colwyn Bay
  • Watching: Once Upon A Time
  • Playing: Chuzzles
  • Eating: Chinese Food
  • Drinking: Tea

Feel So Lost And Hurt...

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 29, 2013, 11:09 AM
Yesterday Sitting outside of Subways taking a break from walking around the shops...and feeling sad and melancholy about how rude people around here really takes a lot for me to even say hello to someone let alone start a conversation wished my mum lived closer and was fit i miss going shopping with her it gets lonely...Im never going out alone again i was fine until i got to the steps of our block and was harrased by 2 lads and there dog they called me names got there dog to piss on my shopping bag and shouted i will kill your cat....its happened once before and we reported it to police and nothing was done im so shuck up and upset we got to get out of this shit hole!!!

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: 90s
  • Reading: Nowt
  • Watching: movies
  • Playing: 4 Elements
  • Eating: cheddar biccies
  • Drinking: 7up

My Operation Went Well :)

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 17, 2013, 1:34 PM
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Hello All
On Wednesday I Had 9 teeth removed.
6 Infected and 3 Baby teeth I Had general Anastetic
and the Doctors and Nurses were Lovely and looked after me.
Im resting up a lot right now and needless to say
I am very Sore And Swollen But glad to say the worst
Is all Over. I Can't eat solids yet so I am just on Liquids
Jelly and icecream it will of course take a few weeks
maybe a month to get back to normal
and all I want to do is sleep right now 
anyway I am not sure when I will be fully back
but wanted everyone to know Im ok.

Skin by SpookyLoop
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Coronation Street
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Operation Very Soon :)

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 8, 2013, 7:20 AM
I telephoned Sharon At Queen Elizabeth Hospital About My Teeth Extraction
And Says they have had a Cancellation for Next wednesday 
so Tomorrow or tuesday I go for my preclarking which is a procedure i have to have before Operation....but she does not know if i have to have it with another dr there or not so i am just waiting a Phone call now but all being well I Should be having my operation next wednesday at midday
I have never been so excited in my life lol thankyou god :)

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Mrs Biggs
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Cherry 7up

Back From My Holiday

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 4, 2013, 5:10 AM
Hey All
So I returned back from My Holiday In Colwyn Bay (Northwales) Yesterday
We had a lovely time with my parents the cats scrapped a little bit but on the last day
they started to like eachother typical lol...
We went to the beach,shops,meals it was a lovely break :)
So wanted to let everyone know Im home Now Mwah xxx

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Mrs Biggs
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Cherry 7up

Off On Holiday Tomorrow

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 22, 2013, 9:46 AM
Hello All
Just Letting You Know That Me,My Boyfriend And Our Kitty
Are Off On Holiday To Wales To Stay With My Parents For
A Few Days Tomorrow So I Shall Not Be Back Around Until After
Saturday Looking Forward To A Nice Break :)
Have A Good Weekend All Mwah xxx

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Coronation Street
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Vimto

Check Out My New Stock Group :)

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 12, 2013, 10:29 AM
Hello All
I Decided To Open A Stock Group Here On Deviant Art
Here It Is- :iconstocks4everyone: 
Im looking for 2 People to help me run the group 
Those who know how to run the groups settings etc and knows the general running of groups
if your interested please reply to this journal :)

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Pretty Little Liars
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Cheese Burger And Chips
  • Drinking: Pepsi