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A Long Awaited Journal

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 13, 2014, 5:37 PM
Dear Friends/Followers/Watchers And Fan

I am sorry for not keeping my Journal up to date.
My health has been so bad lately I have struggled to want to
get up out of bed and have motivation to much a touch of
Depression as well as other sickness.
Anyway just a short journal to say I am still around.

Much Love


  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Heather Feather-ASMR
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Supernatural 200th Episode
  • Playing: Bowling
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Back From My Holidays

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 2, 2014, 11:46 AM
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Hello All
Sorry I Have Been In-active/Away I have been In Wales
For the Past week staying with my Parents :)
I Had a lovely time I got back last night and rather tired
from the Train Journey plus my Heart Murmur is not so good
at the moment anyway Just checking in :)
Hope you are all good xxx

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  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Acromegaly
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: 24 Hours In A And E
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coke

Very Sick Right Now :(

Journal Entry: Fri May 30, 2014, 5:33 AM

On Friday Of last week I decided to go out early
go shopping maybe catch a Mcdonalds breakfast anyway
while I was at Mcdonalds I Met a little old lady
whom was obviously Homeless and not well being the kind person I am
I gave her the rest of my breakfast as I was full and I hate waste.
She later found me to say thankyou and gave me a token to get a free cup of tea
which I thought was very sweet of her and thought nothing more of it.
I then went shops brought some toiletries toys etc and came home feeling good.
The next day I can't breath, my throats killing me, my nose and ears are blocked and I have the
mother of all headaches And All I Want to do is curl up in bed turns out that I Had caught a Virus
from this little old lady which has developed into a chest infection I Had to go to my Doctors and
Am now On strong Anti-Biotics needless to say Im coughing my guts up here and feel so rough.
So That Is Why I Have Been Unactive On Deviant Art For Over A Week
t the Weekend I Contracted A Nasty Virus And Now
Im Nursing A Rather Nasty Chest Infection So I am not feeling
So Hot right now...Will Be Back Soon!!!!



  • Mood: Irritated
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Death Becomes Her
  • Playing: Charm Tales
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

My Internet Search Favorite Websites

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 17, 2014, 1:16 PM

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I find all of these sites very useful so feel free to check any of them out :)

  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Eastenders
  • Playing: Woobies
  • Eating: Chicken Nuggets And Chips
  • Drinking: Coke

Menorrhagia And Chronic Migraines

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 31, 2014, 8:18 AM
Hello Friends
Sorry I have not updated my Journal for a little while 
My health has taken a turn for the worse and the past 2 weeks
I have been knocked for six.
Due To Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
I Do Not Get Regular Periods I Get Them once Maybe Twice a Year
If Im Lucky this is what is known as "Menorrhagia"
Heavy Bleeding,Blood Clots,Fainting Spells,Nausea,Back Pain
Its ten times worse than an Ordinary Period.
Anyway I also had like 4 Migraines in the space of a few days So
I have been in bed I could not even play games on My Laptop
Because that would just bring on another migraine....
I lost a lot of blood and so now having to eat extra to rebuild the salts,sugars And Proteins
back in my body because Im also Diabetic Type 2 I wanted to do a new big piece of Art for you all but I am lacking so much energy and Im constantly on pain killers that I just can only seem to manage stamps etc right now anyway I wanted you to all know Im still around :)

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Most Haunted
  • Playing: Bookworm Adventures
  • Eating: Ham And Lettuce Sandwich
  • Drinking: Tea

I Say What I Feel When Im Feeling It.....

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 26, 2014, 2:28 AM
I am a person who Believes that if its my Facebook page then I should be able to post/say what I want 
Well so life has been a struggle for me and im not the only one.
Right now im waiting for forms to complete to 
make sure Im still entitled to my sick money and the stress
has made me sick even more needless to say I understand expressing
my feelings on facebook is risky and everyones always going to have there own opinions
which they are also entitled too but I am someone who always says what they feel when im feeling it
I mean everyone who knows me closely knows I have struggled with Mental Illness
and Self Harm for many years since I was 9 years old infact.
So I see Facebook as an outlet sometimes to air my feelings and frustrations
I don't go out much due to my health.
I can't help that some people may not like what I have to express
or say that's just me Im an open book and Im honest
I mean You would think people would rather I spoke 
about my bad thoughts and feelings 
than actually cutting myself or thinking about it....
I can't please everyone........................

  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: My Mad Fat Diary
  • Watching: Dance Moms
  • Playing: Spooky Bonus
  • Eating: Lollypop
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Happy New Year (2014)

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 30, 2013, 10:53 AM
Hello All 
We had a wonderful Christmas and im sad that its nearly over 
as its my favorite time of year I had some brilliant presents
Glee Season 4 Boxset
Betty Boop Pyjamas
Tatty Teddy Earrings
Amazing Girlfriend Tatty Teddy
Pat Benatar Album
We Are The Fallen Album
Glee Showstoppers Album
Alice Cooper Album
No 7 Cosmetic Kit
Lady Gaga Perfume/Body Lotion/Shower Gel
Glee Bag
Katy Perry Perfume
The Body Shop Kit
Cat Books
Grumpy Cat Calendar
Grumpy Cat Book
Lil Bub Book
And Loads More
And Christmas dinner was lush 
we still have lots of the food we brought 
so will eat it in the new year.
New Years Eve we will be having a quiet drink in 
all thats left to say is Happy New Year all the best in 2014 :)

Much Love


  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Lil Bub
  • Watching: Teen Witch (Movie)
  • Playing: N/A
  • Eating: Danish Butter Cookies
  • Drinking: Tea

Offline Till After Christmas

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 23, 2013, 12:13 PM
I Go Offline At 9pm And Im Offline Till After Christmas
So Just Want To Wish Everyone An Awesome Christmas I Hope You All
Have Lots Of Wonderful Presents Love You All Merry Christmas xxxx

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  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Christmas Songs
  • Reading: The History Of Colwyn Bay
  • Watching: Coronation Street
  • Playing: Chuzzles
  • Eating: Ferrero Rocher
  • Drinking: Coca Cola

All Geared Up For Christmas :)

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 11, 2013, 4:42 AM

Ho Ho Ho Friends :)
The Decorations are up,the tree is up,I have been opening my chocolate advent calendar everyday which I might add is a Hello Kitty One Lol...All the presents are wrapped looks like a little santas grotto hee
Yesterday we spent £260 on christmas food shopping im excited this year :)
You see we did not have a christmas me and my little family last year we swapped a few presents but it was not like our usual big christmases were you this year we are making up for it :)
Even our kitty has treats coming he has 2 new collars,tins of tuna,cat milk,cat nip and on Christmas day he shall be sharing
some of the lovely big turkey (MEOWWWWWWWWW) YES He will definetly be meowing for that hee hee!
Now I know some of you are sad right now as I had 11 people on my recent poll say they were not looking forward to crimbo
this year whatever troubles you have I hope and pray the new year will bring you all Brighter and happy situations and circumstances.
Hope your enjoying all the newly precut stock I have been uploading I have been going around the house looking for items that I own
and photographing them and making stock with them hopefully some of you will find them useful anyway.

Happy Christmas All
May Your wishes all come true in 2014 :heart:

  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Heather Feather Asmr
  • Reading: The History Of Colwyn Bay
  • Watching: Once Upon A Time
  • Playing: Chuzzles
  • Eating: Chinese Food
  • Drinking: Tea

Feel So Lost And Hurt...

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 29, 2013, 11:09 AM
Yesterday Sitting outside of Subways taking a break from walking around the shops...and feeling sad and melancholy about how rude people around here really takes a lot for me to even say hello to someone let alone start a conversation wished my mum lived closer and was fit i miss going shopping with her it gets lonely...Im never going out alone again i was fine until i got to the steps of our block and was harrased by 2 lads and there dog they called me names got there dog to piss on my shopping bag and shouted i will kill your cat....its happened once before and we reported it to police and nothing was done im so shuck up and upset we got to get out of this shit hole!!!

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: 90s
  • Reading: Nowt
  • Watching: movies
  • Playing: 4 Elements
  • Eating: cheddar biccies
  • Drinking: 7up

My Operation Went Well :)

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 17, 2013, 1:34 PM
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Hello All
On Wednesday I Had 9 teeth removed.
6 Infected and 3 Baby teeth I Had general Anastetic
and the Doctors and Nurses were Lovely and looked after me.
Im resting up a lot right now and needless to say
I am very Sore And Swollen But glad to say the worst
Is all Over. I Can't eat solids yet so I am just on Liquids
Jelly and icecream it will of course take a few weeks
maybe a month to get back to normal
and all I want to do is sleep right now 
anyway I am not sure when I will be fully back
but wanted everyone to know Im ok.

Skin by SpookyLoop
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Coronation Street
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Operation Very Soon :)

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 8, 2013, 7:20 AM
I telephoned Sharon At Queen Elizabeth Hospital About My Teeth Extraction
And Says they have had a Cancellation for Next wednesday 
so Tomorrow or tuesday I go for my preclarking which is a procedure i have to have before Operation....but she does not know if i have to have it with another dr there or not so i am just waiting a Phone call now but all being well I Should be having my operation next wednesday at midday
I have never been so excited in my life lol thankyou god :)

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Mrs Biggs
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Cherry 7up

Back From My Holiday

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 4, 2013, 5:10 AM
Hey All
So I returned back from My Holiday In Colwyn Bay (Northwales) Yesterday
We had a lovely time with my parents the cats scrapped a little bit but on the last day
they started to like eachother typical lol...
We went to the beach,shops,meals it was a lovely break :)
So wanted to let everyone know Im home Now Mwah xxx

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Mrs Biggs
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Cherry 7up

Off On Holiday Tomorrow

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 22, 2013, 9:46 AM
Hello All
Just Letting You Know That Me,My Boyfriend And Our Kitty
Are Off On Holiday To Wales To Stay With My Parents For
A Few Days Tomorrow So I Shall Not Be Back Around Until After
Saturday Looking Forward To A Nice Break :)
Have A Good Weekend All Mwah xxx

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Coronation Street
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Vimto

Check Out My New Stock Group :)

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 12, 2013, 10:29 AM
Hello All
I Decided To Open A Stock Group Here On Deviant Art
Here It Is- :iconstocks4everyone: 
Im looking for 2 People to help me run the group 
Those who know how to run the groups settings etc and knows the general running of groups
if your interested please reply to this journal :)

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Silence
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Pretty Little Liars
  • Playing: Nowt
  • Eating: Cheese Burger And Chips
  • Drinking: Pepsi

This month I have chosen :iconjocachi:

for a one month Premium Membership I think there skills are amazing!!!

Wonderful Work Here Are Some Of :iconjocachi: Pieces :)


Goth by jocachi

Mermaid - commission by jocachi

Amy by jocachi


Jill by jocachi

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  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Meditation
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Lightfields
  • Playing: Bookworm Adventures
  • Eating: n/a
  • Drinking: Coca Cola

The Latest......

Mon May 20, 2013, 12:13 AM

So Yet another trip to the Dentist last week I Was given More Anti-Biotics and Pain Killers
needless to say the pain Is still there but Has settled down a little because The Anti-Biotics are helping with the bad
infection that I have in my gums....I Have to go back to the Dentist sometime this week too have the rest of the Infection washed out of my mouth and then I have to wait until June 27th 2013 to have my Consultation at the Dental Hospital which when your in Terrible pain seems like months not a few weeks away and then they will tell me when my Operation will be I wished it was now I really do I have been so poorly and depressed because its just constantly making me really miserable all I want to do is stay in bed 24/7 but even thats a chore in itself for me because both sides of my face are badly swollen and I try not to sleep on my back so much due to my asthma and sciatica so any sleep I do get is welcomed yet is almost always disturbed due to pain :( anyway just updating my journal on the latest in my life hope everyone is well xxxAimeexxx

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  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Meditation
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Lightfields
  • Playing: Bookworm Adventures
  • Eating: n/a
  • Drinking: Coca Cola

Pure Agony

Journal Entry: Sun May 5, 2013, 11:14 AM

I Don't Know how much more of this Tooth Pain I can take
Im in complete utter pure Agony and I Have to wait until June 27th for a consultation and then I Will have to wait another 2/3 months
before an operation its diabolical. Im knocking back pain killers
like they are sweets,swilling brandy to numb the pain,
using ice packs,water bottles even ora gel numbing agent
and its still so painful I just want them out now I have had enough
Its so severe somedays I am crying my eyes out I Can't Cope Anymore!!!!!

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Meditation
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Eastenders
  • Playing: Bookworm Adventures
  • Eating: n/a
  • Drinking: Ribena

Recovering From A Nasty Chest Infection

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 17, 2013, 2:15 AM
Hey All
Thought I Would update my journal
as I Have not really done much art for over a week now which if you know me
is a long time for me lol....
I Have been stuck in bed for over a week with a nasty Chest Infection
which Im still currently recovering from so not 100% better yet But I Am Getting there.
Tomorrow I Am Off to The Dental Hospital to see about My Operation
So Im very run down at the momen and been in bed a lot trying to sleep
but thats hard to do when you have a load of fluid on your lungs
I Hope everyone is well :)

  • Mood: Fear
  • Listening to: The Police-Message In A Bottle
  • Reading: Stephen King-Eye Of The Dragon
  • Watching: Lifetime Movie-Left To Die
  • Playing: n/a
  • Eating: n/a
  • Drinking: Coke

Back From My Holiday

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 8, 2013, 9:33 AM
Hello All
Sorry There has not been much Activity on my Deviant Art Page for a little while
on the 22nd march I Could not take the pain in my teeth anymore and realised I really needed to
see my parents so My Boyfriend paid for my coach ticket to get to my parents in wales
and I spent a lovely few weeks with them I just really needed to see my mum I think when we are ill
most of us do need our mums it was lovely to see my parents again I Do wished they lived closer
especially when Im really poorly and depressed but I am glad they are only a train or coach
journey away So I Can visit when I Can.

Last week My Cousin Tracy died of Septicimia and today
was her Funeral but sadly me and my parents are too far away
to go to it rest in peace dear tracy.

I hope everyone is well I still have a few weeks before
my Dental Operation so Im trying to cope the best I can.

Much Love

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Iron Maiden
  • Reading: True Horror Stories-Terry Deary
  • Watching: The Syndicate
  • Playing: Woobies
  • Eating: Cheese Bread
  • Drinking: Tea